heyyeeyayo. yo!

and so this is how it feels. how true from the words that came out from my mouth; and how false the immediate answers that spurt out from yours in addition to that : no hesitation to stop me when i being called back no no no. i dont know if i am being too doubly triply sensitive or overoverover sensitive, because the response i heard was not the least i expect or even thought of. paranoid or what, oh yes, you can labelled me all these, because i thought lots while wiping stains off and sending food to hungry omnivores . for what.? but then a final thought came during the journey to table 22,sending a lamb chop, travels up in my small patrick's brain. used? and throw? reallly eh, if 'used and throw' is true, i dont know already. AH am i am i? i kept wanting to doubt what i had been feeling today. I dont wish and want it to be so true and that its really happening. preference over the loves ones than friends. i understands and fully overloadly knows how it is in play...

OHH MANN or WOMAN changes do come so suddenly and fast. what i always heard about cherish what we had is so true and real and NOT A MYTH. thought i could at least find some condolence when i am working, but dont think i could find any now. ALL seem to CHANGED, even though the changes made was little. i cant believed. even the ah nehs missed them. OMHPCG . ( ask for long form if needed) working was a chore now. going to school was a always a chore and home was like a hotel since that day. SO where else can i find my old unique life, like what singapore ads has been portraying themselves as, UNIQUELY singapore. think i am more of robotly singaporean, who live in a uniquely singapore. EH . sounds quite unique now. and i dont know why why why why why, just feel like having someone there for me. EKK. am i becoming more DESPO? AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! NOOOOOOOO! i should learn how to be a real man now. so a nun's practice should be starting soon i think. HAIS throw it away, and forget ye...