heyyeeyayo. yo!

Dear Heyyeeyayo, Today, just felt really big and fat today. Sigh. Mood was a little better than yesterday; as I think I felt more appreciative than yesterday, but still felt something is missing. Felt like I didn't try to live my best, didn't try to make the day out to be what it should be. I ill-treat the fortune that was given to me. Yet, knowing all these, I don't know what should I do. I felt like I've kept thinking about unnecessary things and events.. which I supposed you could guess it.. Ah Liang.. Hai. I really hope I can better myself from him. Not to lost the meaning of loving someone, but to learn how to manage my feelings well. I really can't say I love him, but just still feel thankful and amazed that he makes me feel something different from the others that I've gotten to know. I appreciate this meet up, hence hoping to want more of it. I really don't wish to spend time feeling sad about it. I feel really tired.. I got so many things to tha...

Dear Heyyeeyayo, Today, done quite a lot of mistakes I think. And I can feel there will be another one coming soon. Sigh. Seems like I had not improved at all. Overall, today, I felt really bad and lousy at myself. For not being able to be helpful and contributing. And, felt really really at my worst today too. Frustrated that I couldn't think of what that make me feeling this way. Getting lazy and fatter too. Futhermore, I've always keep thinking I'm a very good person whereby I'm not. Why do I even have this kind of thought of myself. I gotta really do something. Not only to myself, but to the people around me too. Like what everywhere is spreading, to be kind, to think good of others and to others, to be generous, and to just do the best. I always have to be this way.