heyyeeyayo. yo!

i want to go out now n o w ! now now now now now go out go out go out go out go out i am talking to myself =\

in school now and read again and day out again; for them yet, no update of these from the person. okie its a she the outings doesn't hurts, yes.really.confrim WHAT WHAT WHAT ' ve i done. =(

still haven told me about yesterdays okie. not understood thinking that two of you might be together when i am on the trip home, 'you and me', 'you'll be safe here', 'last songs' were popped in my ears for some comfort then keep maintaining my emo image to the bus passengers by looking through the glass panel and have that ' i needed many and many more sympathy than the people in blue in SGH,TTS,NUH,CGH and many other that end with H. but i think my image dint pull it off because everybody was busy with who snores the loudest contest and i am the awake judge. AND i think i had make you sounded like you are a guy.LOL okie. to summarise today, thursday, six of december 2007, the __ weeks of this year, it was a another after UT day and wanting to go home plus the refrainig myself from buying another packet of fries with my currently sore and sick health of mine day. am not recovered from the virus that has been bugging me since the start of the week, and i ...

i think i am selfish because i am sad sad because i read some stuffs which the person dint told me personally and i thought we were doing great than the greats in this case, i was greatly wrong then and animals who are sad are welcome here for today and carrots too they look weaker than they are when they are sad.. they might be out now in the cheery streets again. =\

oh hey hey hey skipped school today; for a reason SO SICK and the weather was tugging me nicely into bed til noon until then, my body wasn't any better. =( but thinking about the yesterday trip from republic to cwp cheer me leh cause its been a long time i walked with ah shann ....! wheeliwheeliwhee with the accompany of ice-cream; and ended with a broken plastic spoon okiee .too detailed. lol although its just a quick walk but anytheways , i feel joyed. hahaha . sorrry spent a aching and jerking day from the cause of cough aiyo . my health makes me worried man aim to be healthy for as long as a healthy woman/nun. oh, thats my goal give you see the view of a yesterday( tuesday ) night but who will come and see. ah jia : me! and then went on to discover a cracked on the plastic gate its unhealthy thus, it prove that this is my home home with a likewise tenant and again.i give this time to the one so long since we ever chat maybe even checking through the online contacts ( for you...

waliweeliwoooooooots changed the skin and quite okie luh . EH. SIMPSONS OKIE dont yellow yellow dirty fellow okie . LOL anyways these few days feel sick luh . alamak . thought sick can get leave from school but thought only. SO SIAN MAN. make me want to eat mian xian . then then then. read a book about singapore written from a england -er. people give me so many glances since i was laughing by myself looking at the book which gives me the feeling of one minute of fame. somemore somemore somemore . should remind myself to post a missing poster of my library book and ezlink . gone for so long and they have not returned yet, made me worried so less OKIE . should be getting it all done by this week MAN reminiscing the moments back then and really back then then. take a $10 ktm train ticket may be enough to reach then then then. busy but dont know real or not. want to ask but dont dare also. friend for so long for what. guts also not there. not nun enough. ohhhhh finey. singapore s...

HEY NOBODIES something happen to this blog which i dint know how to fixed them =\ should be changing soon, but not so very soon look so dislocated now.alamak alamak alamak so ma and huan and i think i should prepare that something for the worse and yet worst i can't seems to change for the better for everyone =(

and so this is how it feels. how true from the words that came out from my mouth; and how false the immediate answers that spurt out from yours in addition to that : no hesitation to stop me when i being called back no no no. i dont know if i am being too doubly triply sensitive or overoverover sensitive, because the response i heard was not the least i expect or even thought of. paranoid or what, oh yes, you can labelled me all these, because i thought lots while wiping stains off and sending food to hungry omnivores . for what.? but then a final thought came during the journey to table 22,sending a lamb chop, travels up in my small patrick's brain. used? and throw? reallly eh, if 'used and throw' is true, i dont know already. AH am i am i? i kept wanting to doubt what i had been feeling today. I dont wish and want it to be so true and that its really happening. preference over the loves ones than friends. i understands and fully overloadly knows how it is in play...

OHH MANN or WOMAN changes do come so suddenly and fast. what i always heard about cherish what we had is so true and real and NOT A MYTH. thought i could at least find some condolence when i am working, but dont think i could find any now. ALL seem to CHANGED, even though the changes made was little. i cant believed. even the ah nehs missed them. OMHPCG . ( ask for long form if needed) working was a chore now. going to school was a always a chore and home was like a hotel since that day. SO where else can i find my old unique life, like what singapore ads has been portraying themselves as, UNIQUELY singapore. think i am more of robotly singaporean, who live in a uniquely singapore. EH . sounds quite unique now. and i dont know why why why why why, just feel like having someone there for me. EKK. am i becoming more DESPO? AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! NOOOOOOOO! i should learn how to be a real man now. so a nun's practice should be starting soon i think. HAIS throw it away, and forget ye...

and i think its okie now. whoo whee whoo whee thank thank thank you

it became like this. so so so very dead. i dont know why luh.you asked but i hesitate to reply the truth just now i am afraid. and afriad leads to nowhere. and then now. and before i thought of how to rephrase, you offline-ed. i realized it was all mine.mine fault. my fault my fault my fault =((( =((( =(((

eh ignorance, and my phone screen cracked. =((( think my phone wants to be sad with me.LOL POOHBEAR : counting down; doing it, thus breaking them. learn to move woman,

AAAAAAAAAAAAAEEEEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUU just read a book on ' who moved my cheese'. NICE AND BAGUS . 1) go library. 2)once after the entrance, turn right to the back of the first shelf. 3)bend down on the second column and stop at the third of forth row. ' who moved my cheese'. both soft and hard covers. GRAB! okie ? LOL counting the days of uncontaction . and he seems to be unaware of this. OH FICK . he's enjoying the other attention now. he's popular among them, but , lefting me out after all ????????? EKKKKKKK - YERRRRRRRRRR . sometimes, money seems to be their main objective compare to me. even with ma. i know she loves and adore money, she even thought of worshipping them in the the museum, but again, money already seems more important than a daughter already, so to friends, think the answer will be obvious. found two songs these few days that will somehow anyhow everyhow link to him. he's really having 100 tonne of fun now. i can sen...

ah ben's gone on 20th october. and i waved a good bye to the plane at sakura. --- i am lkhfnebirwjkkoejrgjbehjbmnwejkltjendaskrjhe. confuse messy dont understand. think it will go away after some time luh. HAHAHA. will be over soon i think believe and its believed.okie POOHBEAR : one sampan and motorboat. comfortable and new. =))) the time given, its either worst or best

i think i am crazy i think i am sad i think i am loony i think i am unhappy i think i am having alot of things wrong in my head i think i am having many types of PMS every other girl had i think i am thinking too much on something too normal i think i am feeling too much on something which do not had any i think i own too much a skin for one girl to have i think i owe this feeling to some kind of thing/ person i think i should stop now. did not appreciate the times when it seems happy and blissful did not probe any further when the times seems right did not went for it when the opportunity came and really knocked the door down did not try to chase after the lost chances when i know it could be caught back did not admit what i did was not did nots . did not did not did not did not did not did not failure one/ now, its so late now, did i realised that one of them did prove some happiness now, this happiness fades and brightens on some other deservedly girls now, the clock ticks on no...

its hard eh. disgusted looks never mind. but being not useful in every every every mini/enormous thing. OHHH MANN. thats what i am now, i think. even the way i feel, ------- blank ah. no idea also. LOL. nothing to say for ahlee. random random random post. MNBVCXZLKHGFDSAPOIUYTREWQ. BUTTBUTT. POOHBEAR : tomorrow's the day its a garanteed that you can make it once you just do it NIKE taught me so; =) keeping quiet, thus watching you walked away THE RULES OF A NUN.

changes. cant follow them.cant realise them.cant adapt them. cant change the changes. feeling not up but down today. down down down. sitting on a slippery slide to bollywood and hide behind the evergreen trees. nothing suits everything. everything suits everyone but not ah lee. ah lee felt un ahlee. also needing to go to school where each day costs around 10bucks. i wasted 100bucks alreaady and felt its worth the waste. now i felt i am wasting time to spend the 10bucks per day at school.10BUCKSSSSS.clever RP to came up this money charging rule. AND the days shortening.should I I I I I? POOHBEAR : allow me to remind you that you are still a trainee under the Y's tree. take a off day by cutting the links between Y and Y.

took some blog leave eariler and blogger.com, jia is here to add some new curly shits. have some newer ideas. open a cd shop.showing anti/not anti climax of my family. compile them into some volume 1/2/3 packs. SELL. EARN. put in mocha.com to inform the new shows. will let youtube steal the privacy and put in their site.LOL yipee.have done my part as lee. make us as famous as mr lee kuan yew. HAIS. so many events happened at not one go, but half a go. the new plans i have is not new anymore, and worse, it fails. badly than my Os.lol and after this failure, the consequences of ones failure came two after another. BOM..PHEW.. BANG.. (*&^%$#@ work was not on my side did so many wrongs again and ya.more wrong. school was not on my side either did so many stupid thinking and talkings to them. home was not on my side either either did so many other things which a holy pure white minded person wnt do. work not on my side. school not on my side. home not on my side. cant celebrate labours ...

FULL MOON UP AND ABOVE SHINY AND BRIGHT no mooncake . no lantern. have halal food in exchange. a halal feast. and had internal celebration with sakura diners. WOOOOW . WHOOOOOO . but was a BUSY DAY FOR THE LONG SLEEVES and RED SHIRTS counting two more days to catch the forms. snatching the custody of the thousand plus SDG with the gobbling money school, THE FIRST STEP WAS TOUGH MAN. wonder how the hell(o) will the next step be ALIBABA and friends, where are you? POOHBEAR : balance; him and books make links between a sign and thai language, between red shirt and black/white stripes shirt, sparsely hair and long silky hair, lao cok cok and teenager. waiting earnestly/sincerely to make a difference from... L FAMILY/Y FAMILY

STUCK ahhhh !!??!?!??!?!!!?

yaa. am wondering what is it like in new york nice then imigrate. LOL in a 'having a roof over me but dont feel like a home, having a papa and mama but dont look like am having a family' thinking/mood/feeling THIS IS HOME.TRULY. no wonder this applies to only for national day.not for family wise.esp lee's family went to poh's house on sat after work.the place for my temporaliy imaginary new york output.where all the free talking service by mrs lee is heard using micromicro hearing aid.or none. and where all my hungry monsters began to die. here i come. lim's black porridge sunday was sian 1/2 + 1/2 = 1. although bean was working.haa. cause knowing school would be starting in less than 24 hours, nothing raise ah jia mood. planned so much about after holiday days but dont think i can set to do them. said was easier then doing them. TRUE, and i am going to make them UNTRUE. if i can.HAIS monday,the first day of sem 2, woke up at 1pm. could only thinking of rp-eans eat...

school starting in 45 HOURS! stepping into the school in 53 HOURS! ARRRGGGGGGGGGGGGG. one thing i dreaded going to RP : wheres my friends???????????????? another thing i dreaded going to RP : 'you are??????????????????????????' and yet another dreadiness to RP : 'in this slide, i am going to explain.....' although working sounds harder then studying, but works make me feel like ah jia and at least i can get to earn some $$$ money $$$ for myself. and RP's seems to be indirectly taking the hard earn money from me for settling my almost everysecs hungry stomach and itching mouth. there are new changes everywhere now. in my house, maybe the ants are reproducing and the new born lifes will made changes to my sweets food. outside house, the trees will be cut sooner or soonest for a larger needings of paper out there for those unwanted receipets which worth only a few cents just to make a confrimation of the change. HEY HEY HEY does this means that i must change as well. m...

AH..BOSS AH!! THE CULTLERIES LEFT TWO TUBS. TML I DO CASHIER WHAT. SO TML THEN I WIPE THEM LORRHHH. CAN OR NOT?? CAN AH?? OKIE!! tooooot...toooot..tooooot a conver between a boss and a amplifier the next day, jia was asked to help wipe the two tubs and a half cultleries. and happily ever after until 5pm, she and her friend and bosses came back after eating. so logic eh. making five of my senses so right. have a wetting face competition today with poh. haven decide whos the winner. but i think poh was already seeing and thinking too much. which maybe will lead to more downs for her. and this may make her be the winner. lol think we should feel high. LETS GO BUNGEE! okie??? but please. dont MIA. bungee only after/off work and have a sore throating competition. haa but you still have your understanding mother though. sounds nice ehhh. do think that it feels nice too. but really thanks, ah poh's mother. for that night. LOL jia's wish if everybody's birthday is every week, i wou...

THE CAFE welcome welcome! i'll make juices,smoothies.shakes. with clean gloves on. my hands feels plastic all day long. you will need nothing to worry about the hygenic of them. orders of nice delicious tempting food through walkie helped me to talk to myself outloud in the midst of showering so as to be trained to allow the otherside of the walkie's to hear clearly what i was murmuring. running back to back,both the back doors of sakura and the cafe, make me a main character in the sercuity camera situated along the lane that is connecting both the back doors. ya ya ya. working everyday. work like it was the old days. but heyyeeyayo, the feeling wasnt there. the feeling of wanting to work for them,really worked even though are tired,would still worked without any grumbles or complains, were not there. cafe was just beside sakura. but the attitudes was traveling through plane across the dead sea. work load was one. enviroment was the other. still finding out the main cause,and ...

TAGGED. by ah shan . soooo heres the ten wired things about ah jia . THE TEN(10)( sepuluh )(तें) WEIRD THINGS ABOUT JIAS firstly.i have a weird face. dont know.every morning when i look into the mirror the thing cracked a lil '? LOL .so i have weird face. secondly.my voice.sounds very guy when i am actually a real woman.i go to girls sign toilet and nobody chase me out before.so i am a girl.or maybe its because i never speak to them while we are toileting ,so they never bother to broom/mop me away using auntie's tool.but , i'm having a guy face. heyyyy ,i can multi toilet. thirdly.my hands.ekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk they are rough.sandpapers has met a strong competition since 1990s.lol.no matter how many brands of lotion,powder,milks,shower foam, they have no effects on my sandy hands. aiya ,at least this could add to my wired list. forthly .biting nails.fingernails.toenails havent try.but think i could skip that trying. lol my nails can be bitten til...

THURSDAY - 24.08.2007 - LAST DAY OF SEMESTER ONE . went to marina bay eat 'ZHENG'. but all in all, soeul gardens still is the best choice for them. and also i want to try the ___ pang next to ZHENG before deciding that soeul's the best. beside sakura . LOL. now the photos..i only manage to get a few.hais. end of semester one. over the weekends, my friendster added some 2 new friends. one was new,but the other.not so. the new one - going away for some learning.haha.=))) the not so new one - bean. he added other working friends too.which means that he just add me like what normal/working friends does.but why add now when he already knows about my account long ago? the road to deleting failed. think i am really thinking too much, and reading too much into a friend request. hais.happpy(for the really new added friend) yet confused(for the not so really new friend no time to think so much about that because our monday was reaching which was today - which means HELLO! SHAN,FEL,YI...

first day of vacation. first day of sians sians experience. staying at my parents house leads me to think loads.for example the thought of everyone separating.ekkkk.throw away throw away. the thought of everyone in W15E being in different class. ohh myy.waste my memory space.delete. the thought of not getting together for most of the time with them. turn me upside down to pour out the thoughts please. realise and really realise.people come and people go.the same people.some gone forever,some still by your side or is instilled inside you firmly.you tell yourself never ever will we forget each other and hearing each other familiar voices are just one button away.but who knows the future that lays ahead of us.the path that might change our promises and the calls list.memories may not be forgotten,but the bondings?afraid but still, i'll need to accept this cruelty rule lay by RP. W15E ? no. W15E of 2007 it shall be. *IMPRINTED* vacation was not what i want in RP.no wonder its a unquie ...

last day already - lets listen to some un-emo songs! enjoyyyy

here i am.blogger.com first time reached school when our school was having their first breakout. NICE. met ah ying when quening for 169. dint notice her until boarding time.lol.sounds like taking plane. ah ying and ah jia decided to go straight to canteen to fulfill our empty stomachs' needs and dine in class. but in the end went back to canteen and eat, together with ah shan ,ah fel and ah leen . ah fel saw her 'chi xin jue dui ' guy wearing green and green seems to become fel fav colours then. lololol . told them the comment i recently received.HAHAHAHA.am so happy i cant describe properly to them.but come to think of it, its normal lah .since it was me who viewed him in the first place.i replied the comment and look through his profile once more that night,still dint realised that my profile was not set as private til the next day when they told me.so he could see all.all my idiot and retarded faces caught in actions which was shown clearly and motionless for...

finally finally cleared the webs here.i can see everything so clearly now.which means.. TIME FOR ANOTHER UPDATION by ah lee thurdays -- pon school and went seoul gardens and feasted there.remembered it was science module that day. din pon that subject before.but think everything will have its first time? haha . anyways and anyways. went back to school after feasting. the faci saw us some did nothing. and was told that the faci treated our class pizzzzzzzzas .but aiya . seoul also have. just different brands. lol . then went to work while the others went to a talk. hais .cant joined them. =( day endedddd . friday --- monday was pon-ed days. was working days too. so hectic and messy during the weekends. realised serious mistakes and problems were caused more at the cafe than resturant. cant 'sayang' the cafe the way our boss wants and expects.will need to pull my anklet black socks til it reaches my knees will the bell rang for having the job done exceptably. - thus ringi...

UP UP UP DATE. ohh my.longs and longss never blog.please stay awake my heyyeeyayos.prepare for the new 100kg-like entries. remembered that i am school-free on fri and fri was the start of the new cafe.but cant really remembered what happen that day until past midnight.bean was pissed with me over something.gulit-ridden ahjia then decided to apologise through message.and the replys was 'stun'.din expect to receive these replys but just face it,nun.cant run away even though i am trying to.keep hoping to wake up from this soreal dream but i could felt my pinches and the message still staring at me.walked home so slowly that day,just to make sure it wasn't really happening. hoping wanting wishing pobi-ing to receive another mesage that says 'happy national fool's day'.think i was the fool at the end of the day. reached home finally but couldnt sleep to forget the incident because was asked to do something for the cafe.throughout the night,i dint feel as tired as i t...