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Dear Heyyeeyayo, Somehow, i really feel i am distancing myself from sister. Not sure what is the reason. Kept telling myself it is because she smoked, that is why i felt reasoned enough to not talk to her so much. But now, probably she had stopped smoking, probably she got her reasons why she have to smoke, but i still couldn't have myself talk to her like how i used to. I felt really bad, but at the same time, i still managed to be ruthless and heartless with her. I think she felt it too. I even forgot that it was her driving test today. I only managed to wish her at the last minute. Didn't bought her anything special to celebrate her passing on her first trial. Only thought of what i wanted for tonight. Today, Jacqueline also told me something new. But i know, that i hadn't been 'performing' well with people. I had been 'cut' very frequently, which makes the moment very stale and not pleasant at all. It is with all the people whom i am with, not only J...

Dear Heyyeeyayo, Today got to hear one of my favorite song on the radio! All of me by. hahaha. I don't know who sang it. But it was really nice. Thank you for making this song and playing this song, 987fm! And also did i realized how much i'd missed that boy. Sigh. Somehow i wished i wasn't that lousy and clingy. Somehow i wished i can just face the world without the boy so much. Somehow i wished i really got the true strength to be on my own, without having to rely on the boy every time. Knew i had been avoiding many things, and just focus on current stuffs. To make my life seems easier. In the end, it'd all come back to me again. Have to face all the hiccups, all the knots, and things that i felt make my life interrupted. There are also World's worries and troubles. For example the dry spells and the haze. The missing plane. The many internal conflicts between countries, for the ownership of seas, lands and air region. What are my problems compare to them. My ...

Dear Heyyeeyayo, Been binging on food again. And felt really lazy to work them off. Lol. Got to find the motivation. Sis had to go Myanmar for work last minute today. Would only be back tomorrow, and will be going to fetch her :D. Daddy went Casino secretly again. Mother was very angry, me too. Thought he really went to work, like what he told us. Was thinking will it become a real problem, like what is always shown in television. Sigh. Anyway, saw Stella, my primary school friend, updating her post in Facebook about her and her boyfriend. Their journey were really sincere and real. Couldn't help to feel envy, I know I shouldn't. Got to be thankful for what I have, not wishing for things I couldn't have or want to have. Hmm, overall.. I don't want to be superficial.. Hope I am not. AhJia