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Dear Heyyeeyayo, Today felt very busy. Think hadn't been feeling this way for a very long time. Khay's birthday is tomorrow but felt that I wasn't very prepared for it. I shouldn't be feeling this way on going to her Birthday. She treats me really good. I just hope I can make her happy tomorrow. Hope Jacqueline is able to take my stupidness, insensitivity and selfishness too. Really quite tired today. Think will be stopping here for now. Didn't really give much thoughts today too..

Dear Heyyeeyayo, Had quite some thoughts today. Yesterday think I had made my brother angry, and sister left out. Brother went to help me buy bread because was lazy when my father asked me to buy. Didn't let brother felt appreciated when he came back with the bread with my comments saying why does he always buy that same bread and told him this bread wasn't good. My intention was to tell him not to eat this bread because to me the bread is not as healthy as the one I had always buy. But I guessed I sound too harsh and rude to his feelings. Sister came to the room yesterday to ask when would I moved over, and I replied with an 'I am tired'. Was really tired, but thought I shouldn't have done it that way. Thank You sister for today though, for not ignoring me and still wanting to talk to me still. Had loads of things to do. Felt that I won't be handling them very well. Really am scared of tomorrow. But I don't know what else to do to make me less scared. ...

Dear Heyyeeyayo, Would just want to come here and write something. Just felt I am not enjoying the time that people are giving me. Just felt I am too obsessed with myself. Everything makes me feel like I should know and go the way  I wanted. I can do but people can't do. That's what my sister told me about how she felt towards my behavior. Felt the same too with myself but do not know what to do with it. Would feel very frustrated if things doesn't go my way. Felt that I wasn't used to be this way, and had a feeling that I lost really much of my thoughts. Just feel that things will go better or smooth after this time, everytime. Guess I am in no position to talk about other stuffs. Have to know that I am really a problem, that I ain't helping others even though I thought I am, or that I am actually becoming matured enough to handle stuffs. I am sorry Heyyeeyayo, I knew something is happening or turning, but I didn't stop myself. The feelings that I had felt m...