HOW HAPPY CAN I GET THAN THIS

i think i am crazy
i think i am sad

i think i am loony
i think i am unhappy

i think i am having alot of things wrong in my head
i think i am having many types of PMS every other girl had

i think i am thinking too much on something too normal
i think i am feeling too much on something which do not had any

i think i own too much a skin for one girl to have
i think i owe this feeling to some kind of thing/person

i think i should stop now.


did not appreciate the times when it seems happy and blissful
did not probe any further when the times seems right
did not went for it when the opportunity came and really knocked the door down
did not try to chase after the lost chances when i know it could be caught back
did not admit what i did was not did nots.
did not did not did not did not did not did not
failure one/

now, its so late
now, did i realised that one of them did prove some happiness
now, this happiness fades and brightens on some other deservedly girls
now, the clock ticks on
now, was over and non-refundable
failure two//


. . .
like the littleschoolmate in the schooly yard
we'll play jacks and uno cards
i'll be your best friend and you'll be mine, valentine
yes you can hold my hand if you want to
cause i want to hold yours too
we'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
but its time for me to go home
it getting late, dark outside
...
and i'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
but i've got to get a move on with my life
its time to be a big girl now
and big girls dont cry
. . .

POOHBEAR :

realise now, that you are living blissfully in another way

didnt i learnt an early reaslisation after all?