two more to go, one more cold chain test and holidays are coming.
Thursday was dreadful. i knew i done alot of mistakes in alot of questions after hearing their explanations, plus questions that i didn't know how to do and left undone. then i was being locked out of house because i forgot to bring my keys along. mum told me i left outside the gate when in the morning. lol. very dampening, because i planned to take a nap and then study my warehouse. i was really tired, i wanted to sleep badly. i went up my neighbour's house praying they will be at home to answer the door, but they were out. i sat at the staircase thinking what else can i do. thought of going to my mum's workplace, but can't get through my mum's phone. then saw my phone on its low battery. then i decided to find places to settle down til my dad's homed. went library, starbucks, macs, burger king, they were occupied, or doesn't have plugs. very discouraging, but i have to walk still to think of other places. then came the message from Jing Kang. (oh, he just messaged! hahahah) the feeling was great. felt like someone was there to share that discouragements with me even though i was alone there. i began to walk with purpose. i saw one small boy waiting for the traffic light with his mum, i gave a smiled, although he didn't smiled back. but then all my previous fan nao seems to magically disappeared. haha. honestly, i don't think i will smile if i didn't received the message. hoho.
then later on, meiying called. finally got a chance to complain, really helps alot. at the same time, Meiying told me about IEP, she and peck received the email. i asked Meiying to help me checked, i was pretty sure i would get one too, but haha never. it saddens me, plus the current mood i had wasn't that good too, so emotions tend to get unstable. just when i was down again, Meiying's message was like magic too. to me, it was very touching. although it was a simple message asking me if i reached home le ma?, asking me not to think too much and encouragements,but it was more than enough. at the bus-stop waiting for 34 to go home, i saw the evening sky. wah. b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l. p-e-a-c-e-f-u-l. then i realise maybe we are taking all these for granted, i can hear the sound of birds flying past above us. a very peaceful evening.
Thursday, was dreadful, it will never be a day i wanted it to happen again. but then again, the moments of heartfelt events and concerns i had will never be experieced if i didn't went through the bad day. if i were sleeping in my house, i will missed the messages and calls, i will not realise how important their short time spent in messaging and calling meant to me. i will not know how much i need them.
Today, JingKang hasn't got enough sleep because he slept only after he morning called me, which is at 4am. to be honest, my feelings were contradicting. gulity yet happy. haha i sound bad. so why happy? because he can't sleep when i was sleeping soundly. haha. JOKINGJOKING.
hai. so i felt i owed him agian. it was his UT today as well, but he was risking that so to call me to wake up and study. i really appreciates alot, and i didn't repay you back any. I am sorry Jing Kang. and i am grateful Jing Kang.
anw, today my whole day, it was happy. managed to sit down and chat with SSF. it has been a long time since i had a talk like that. Thank You too SSF.
haha. so emo post. die mannn.
while i was sleeping just now, listening to my mp3, this song was played. quite an old song, but i would like to gave this to ssf, as well as Jing Kang.
i felt speical, i felt love.
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