sentosa today
haha. went suntann with fiona, meiying and peck. peck finally went sentosa with us, it was our first sentosa trip tgt. hahaa. and the sun was so hot today, i felt my face was like spliting into halve man. then went for dinner at kim gary, charming lao ban was also there. hahhaa...
gotten the photos for peck's birthday. i rmb that night was quite high for me, dont know why. and the prices for that was very cheap too. can try again and i will explore more chinese songs too. lazy to upload the pics today..okay lah. maybe i will later. lolls
today after departed with peck and ying, i was thinking what's the definition of friend. i guessed i didn't fulfilled it very much. i have great friends, really. but i am not sure if i am a great friend to them. that's why i had always felt i have neglected certain things somehow at the end of the day. i thought maybe i should have done that, maybe that could make the whole thing feeling better. or maybe i shouldn't done that, maybe it will turned otherwise. sometimes, 'dont dare' this two words make me felt so useless, it occurs to me it was my common word. dont dare to do, dont dare to ask, dont dare to probe further, dont dare to say.. and scared of that, scared of this, what to do? forget it lor..still got next time ma.. i always make this as my excuse to push it to other next time. push push push, until a baby came out also don’t know. i always OS inside myself that they are the people who are really important to me in my life, but i doesn't make the appropriate actions. a girl with no assets, no looks, no talents, and yet no discipline and principles..how can this be. I think there wasn’t any 19 years old normal girl living like that anymore. Because somehow i heard or received one or two from them, seldom the other way round. Loll. What a joke. maybe i have not done enough yet. maybe i thought a small thing done was a big thing to others. Or maybe i still didn’t know the definition of friend. What have i acquired for my experiences from primary to secondary school i suddenly don’t know. gone through, been there, but pick up nth to upgrade myself. something that keeps me occupied on the way home.. i love ssf today, and i love the sun too..
some pics for now, the loading took qutie long man. so decided to load another day.
gotten the photos for peck's birthday. i rmb that night was quite high for me, dont know why. and the prices for that was very cheap too. can try again and i will explore more chinese songs too. lazy to upload the pics today..okay lah. maybe i will later. lolls
today after departed with peck and ying, i was thinking what's the definition of friend. i guessed i didn't fulfilled it very much. i have great friends, really. but i am not sure if i am a great friend to them. that's why i had always felt i have neglected certain things somehow at the end of the day. i thought maybe i should have done that, maybe that could make the whole thing feeling better. or maybe i shouldn't done that, maybe it will turned otherwise. sometimes, 'dont dare' this two words make me felt so useless, it occurs to me it was my common word. dont dare to do, dont dare to ask, dont dare to probe further, dont dare to say.. and scared of that, scared of this, what to do? forget it lor..still got next time ma.. i always make this as my excuse to push it to other next time. push push push, until a baby came out also don’t know. i always OS inside myself that they are the people who are really important to me in my life, but i doesn't make the appropriate actions. a girl with no assets, no looks, no talents, and yet no discipline and principles..how can this be. I think there wasn’t any 19 years old normal girl living like that anymore. Because somehow i heard or received one or two from them, seldom the other way round. Loll. What a joke. maybe i have not done enough yet. maybe i thought a small thing done was a big thing to others. Or maybe i still didn’t know the definition of friend. What have i acquired for my experiences from primary to secondary school i suddenly don’t know. gone through, been there, but pick up nth to upgrade myself. something that keeps me occupied on the way home.. i love ssf today, and i love the sun too..
some pics for now, the loading took qutie long man. so decided to load another day.
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